My team is looking out their windows at mountain tops right now. As I look out of my window from my quarantined space, I don’t see any mountains, but I can feel them. I can feel the obstacles that stand in the way between me and launching.
I’ve been determined to make the most out of this delay. I’ve been praying for my team and for the people we meet. I tuned in to all the classes I could at launch and studied the notes over and over. I’ve been brushing up on my Spanish. I have also finished packing. That’s when a sad realization hit me. I finished packing, and put on my pack to feel like I was on the field with my team. But as the simple task of picking up my bag made me lose my breath and cough like crazy, I realized it. I realized that no matter what I do to try and feel like I’m there and fully in right now, I’m not.
I sat on my bed feeling rather discouraged, “Why is this happening right now? What is your purpose for this delay?” I asked God in a low, teary voice. Before a single tear could roll down my cheek, his sweet voice spoke to me, “You may feel delayed, but I am right on time. I’m right on time with my plan and purpose. Just because it doesn’t look like how you thought it would look doesn’t mean purpose has left you.”
The truth is that I don’t have to say or do anything to justify this time. I can strive all I want, but grace still meets me here at the end of the day. It meets me and tells me that even if I weren’t looking for it, there would still be a purpose for all of this. God has extended his hand and asked, “Do you trust me?” as I take it, I feel fully confident in the reason I’m still here, even if it’s unknown.
A lot is still a mystery, but this one thing is certain. There is purpose in this for me yet.
What is God speaking to you about the unknowns in your life right now?
I love you so very much. I know you will be well soon ans be able to catch up with no problems. Very proud momma.
Ali,
Thank you for sharing!
Quarantining (isolating but not live in secrecy) can be tough! Our enemy comes to steal our joy and purpose. But mostly what he does, he is striving to make us doubt God’s purpose in our lives. John 10:10 says this
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full”
Therefore, the unknows are opportunities for us to grow in faith, in intimacy with God, and to enjoy his presence. They are reminders from God that we are not in control, but Him; Also, the unknowns are open doors to grow in intimacy with our community if we invite them into our lives. Or simply, let them know that you purposely pray for each one of them.
Again, thank you for sharing and I hope this is an encouragement for you. I’m praying for you and keep us posted.
James 1:2,
Daniel
“I can strive all I want, but grace still meets me here at the end of the day”
Now THAT’S a good word! Thank you for your honesty and your sweet perspective. It’s pure joy to witness the fruit of your harvest and your time in the throne room.